When you’re called to more than being a good friend

A tough conversation and it’s uncomfortable consequences has me realizing…I’ve avoided tough conversations to stay comfortable. I’m choosing this comfort over standing boldly for Christ – or really, over standing for anything.

We’ve all heard the quote, right? “Stand for something or you’ll fall for anything”

Well I’ve fallen in the habit of being everyone’s friend while forsaking talking about hard truths.

I want to love my friend who works with us with team meals so I don’t challenge her on how she makes fun of people.

I am trying to reach a teenage mom for Christ which has somehow translated into me putting up with the way she lies & fights with people as I silently sit back without challenging her that there’s a better way.

I’ve heard people over and over talk about church traditions, or I’ve seen them, without challenging “why?” – instead it’s easier to be nice, quietly wait it out, and not go home pouring over my Bible looking for answers for all of the questions of how to respond.

Today I stood up in a relationship I love, with a mom connected to a family – aunts, nieces, their children, neighbors – that may turn away from me and cut me off relationally because of my stand against tradition to question, “Does this cultural ritual, this tradition we don’t even think about, honor God? Is it okay that I say yes to this before thinking of factoring God in?”

This tradition is one that a Haitian would say is not even really about the church – but about the ritual of what you do with a new baby!

But, friends, God is in everything.

Why do I have to bring God into it?
Why would I make a stand when everyone else accepts it’s a part of the culture?

Other Haitian Christians I’ve asked have voiced that two and two don’t add up in this tradition that is said to honor God but is instead about self and ritual…to me privately. Not publicly. I’m not even a part of this culture, why do I have to bring up what is going unsaid?

And why did I let it go this long? Passive friend once again, I just smiled as she brought it up the past few months. Not saying yes…but not letting a ‘no’ escape either.

These are the things I feel coming at me as the mother says, “if there’s another reason you can’t do it, I agree and it’s fine. If the reason is the church, I’m not okay and we aren’t fine.”

And it’s so uncomfortable. I’m scared of the consequences. I’m anxious about a meeting tomorrow where Pastor Moïse has graciously offered to be a part of the conversation for better understanding. I’m worried of the long term of what will happen. I’m thinking of the potentially cut off relationship between me and the entire family network.

And all of this has me wondering…why have I not felt this before after hard conversations? Why is this such a big deal? Why is this so hard?

It’s because I haven’t done it before. I’m choosing easy over bold, being nice over Christ.

Now, Christ IS the goal of my relationships. But what am I building if I am simply just….a good neighbor and nothing more? If I don’t mention the things I stand for, if I am passive in the attitudes and actions that go directly against what I say is my faith?

I am learning.
And today I learned shame on me for this comfort I have clung to.
Lord, Holy Spirit, I ask you to help me moving forward and to gently bring a bold, grace filled but bold, stance for You into my day to day relationships.

What is the good relationship with this mother if her very soul is forfeited?

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One thought on “When you’re called to more than being a good friend

  1. “What is the good relationship with this mother if her very soul is forfeited?” I think this says it all sweetie. We love you and are praying for you. Maybe God is getting you to leave that “comfort zone”. If they see a passiveness in you, how do you think THEY will be if given the opportunity eventually to BE the teacher. Lead by example, as hard as it may be. We are praying God will direct you accordingly and let you know the right time and place for your concerns to be voiced.

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